Eileen Fleming - Author, Reporter, Baby Boomer Activist - Health, Wellness, Spirituality
When I began the Practice of Yoga last October [instead of undergoing total bilateral knee replacements] the very first question Gina, my first teacher at One Yoga asked the class was to offer One Word to explain WHY we were there.
“CHANGE” is what my heart and voice said, and that is exactly what I have been receiving ever since!
Over the following few weeks with Gina, she told me: “In Yoga you will always receive The Teacher you need.”
Two weeks ago, I attended five classes taught by five different teachers and every ONE of them offered me The Change I needed to learn.
During last Saturday’s Yin class taught by Max, he led us into “child pose” which we held a very long time.
Yin Yoga as Gina says is about “relaxing into the discomfort of therapeutic change.”
Because of my decrepit knees* Max bolstered me into more of a Restore Child's pose, so I could surrender into the support of the bolsters.
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*In 2013, an MRI of my knees revealed:
1. Severe endstage osteoarthritis patellofemoral joint with trochlear dysplasia-essentially no trochlear groove and patella articulates on lateral facet.
2. Severe endstage osteoarthritis of medial joint compartment.
3. Avulsion of the root of posterior horn of medial meniscus.
4. Mucinous degeneration of anterior cruciate ligament.
In other words: I have NO cartilage in my knees and although multiple Western Medical Experts advised me to undergo total bilateral knee-replacements:
I refused because I listened to my gut/INTUITION!
Ever since I first blew out my knees in 2004, I have felt a 'tourniquet' sensation in my left leg from my mid-thigh down to mid-calf when ever I would bend that knee…
ALL my Yoga Teachers constantly remind me to focus and MOVE with The Breath and when I hit my “edge” in any asana/pose I am to back off but also allow my Breath to take me deeper.
HOWEVER, I am dealing with 60 years of pushing myself to my max-and often beyond what my body can safely deal with.
Last Saturday, I kept hitting my edge with every exhale but I backed off with every inhale as I maintained “Childs-pose.”
I did NOT realize until after Max called us out of “Childs pose” that my exhales had sent me further back into a compression on my knees than I have gone for at least a decade!
The GOOD NEWS is the tourniquet sensation I have felt in my left leg DISAPPEARED and 7 days later it remains a ghost!
But I also inflamed my ‘normal’ knee pain into an acute “Dis-Ease” for my knee swelled and a sharp biting stabbing pain became my new normal!
Because I learn best by EXPERIENCE, this week I learned I must Change my Nature-so I have RESTED like I have never rested before; the swelling is gone and the deep pain in my knee has decreased.
This past week I only went to One Yoga for Restore, Fundamental and Yin class; and at home I PRACTICED a few Yin asanas/poses with a minimum of 30 minutes in Shavasana/corpse pose as I mediated-which I call silent prayer-meaning coming into The Presence of the Ultimate Mystery of The Universe we call God for lack of a better name without any agenda...
This morning, Terri said “Disease is Dis-Ease” as she led Saturday’s Yin class at One Yoga, and she also kept reminding us to “TAP” into our intuitive wisdom.
All the Yogi Teachers I have so far experienced have instructed me that what ever sensations, thoughts, emotions that arise during my Practice of Yoga are to be “let go” of as I exhale and The Time for reflecting on the sensations, thoughts and emotions is after the Practice of Yoga.
So, after this mornings class I asked Terri if the “tapping” sensation I have been experiencing in my shoulders, arms, knees and legs during my practice of Yin Yoga but most especially during my final asana/pose of Shavasana [corpse pose with Meditation] was a RELEASE of healing energy/prana because of a breakthrough of scar tissue or fascia?
Terri said “YES” so this Wabi-Sabi Yoga in training is intuiting more HEALING will come my way in the Practice of Yoga- and THAT is The Change I am Believing in!